So this is a bit of a different post to the main ones I’m doing. I am not going to name the placement I was at on this post, for legal reasons. I always have had a good judge of character but this time it is very different. I would never of thought it, it never would of crossed my mind, not the extreme level of this. I may think many things of someone if or not I thought they was a good person overall. On one of my placements they was a staff member who everyone got with. He was someone you could talk to about anything and he would be there to support you. He would dedicate his time into helping others and you knew you could trust him… Wait, that turned out to possibly be the wrong thing. He was arrested, not for something petty, child offences. Yeah, now you are probably starting to think, what, how, why? I still don’t have all the answers to those and many more questions. I still find it hard to deal with this specific thing. I still get this rage, anger and feel stressed and upset about it. This is one of the only things what gets to me daily. Its a struggle and there is not a day that goes by of not thinking about it. I think its because its the nature of the crime he committed and because its not possible to see him anymore. It feels like he has died because there is no contact allowed. I am so badly affected by it because I trusted him and told some stuff what is quite hard to say to anyone in general. I miss him and how we worked so well together as well.
Thanks for reading, Adam.